Beautiful Words

Chapter 300 - MSN

2011-06-27T00:01:00.001+08:00

Did i mention that pillows make good friends?
Yes they do, cause they listen, & reply with reflective thoughts while keeping quiet.

Sensitive they are,
so

Chapter 299 - Strikes

2011-06-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

It struck me hard, the feeling of having placed hope in one person.
And having that person momentarily taken away from me and then coming back, slightly different.
It's a fear, we know it's not that easy, but it's possible.
As many had already experienced.
In mine, it's a family.
People you see who look like they will never change, somehow..
Change.
and when it happens, they themselves aren't aware of the destruction they're causing.
The void they're creating between them and their loved ones.
It's a terrible feeling.

I've had that fear for a long time now.
Tendency has a habit of using cement for cover ups.
It's not good, walls are built along the fortress's walls.
A wall upon a wall? That's thick, when something's that thick, it's hard to penetrate.
The living beings inside will have difficulty breathing and facing the world due to the distance they've made up between themselves and the world.

Options 1 & 2, only these two are left.
Not like there were any more previously, but these two are concluded from the head of the BigE.
1. Release the clouds and make them shroud fear.
2. Embrace the fear and get engulfed by it and wait for fear to die out.

1's an easy way out, but it isn't good for the nicey, while 2's a long term suffering, painful feeling, but that's in the flow of nicey.

No sense to you? search deeper, words are just words, but the effort to make words count makes you count. And when the effort is there, somehow, you make a difference.
Over the long silent season of shutting myself away from whatever i call ~
alright.

This is golden.
Who makes gummy bears out of flowers?
Flowers, that's a nice thought.
Flowers usually come with candies, like chocolate.
Chocolate represents sweetness, there're bitter ones too.
I like the bitter ones, dark dark chocolate.
You see them everywhere. DAMN.

Time to get my life back in order..

Chapter 298 - Magic Dust

2011-03-22T19:26:00.002+08:00

I've heard many things lately.
Read up on many things lately.
Done many things lately.
Still, i don't know enough.

Insecurity dwells.
We have a cover of false confidence, but how long can it hold up?
After a long ride of trying things out, we feel that it's time for serious stuffs.
But it's never the time, because there's no such thing as perfect circumstance for anything.
We tread wearily and scaredyly each day, not knowing how things will turn out.
Good things happen, we try to prolong the moment, but no matter what, time will push us on.
Bad stuffs happen and we try to speed up time, but time slows us down and mocks us.
Well, we all need to take chances, and chances are given not by men/ourselves, but by time.
God made time, and time is God i guess, since beginnings and all, are creations by God.

Peculiar events.
We seek the unattainable, yearn and wish and pray and want it bad.
We ignore the attained, there's no challenge, nothing much to look forward to.
That's nature, that's human.

Make me weep.
The warmth of weeping i seek.
Make me sleep.
Dreams give advice that's of good heed.
Make me smell.
I know your smell and i know it too well.
Make we dwell.
In your embrace, away from this hell.
I'll make you see.
That the world's a sailing journey on a calm sea.
I'll make you like.
The world of ours, from left to right.
I'll make you trust.
In this world of ours deep below its crust.
I'll make you sing.
Songs of joy, love, faith and hope, that the birds bring.

Chapter 297 - Chocolate Mint

2010-11-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

It's either this or that. You try think of another word.
You can't right?
Cause it's either this or that. (:

But yea, i've been living in a state of surreality these days.
Floating from place to place, not really serious about anything,
but school's started and i should get serious.
Did i mention that i had camp previously?
Camp, well, what do guys do in camp?
Make new friends of course, new girl friends right?
But no, i think it's the bromance within that drew me.
Not exactly at first, cause i wanted to try out the feeling of being a facil for the camp,
until then the guys started warming me up.
That's when things get rough, and rough gets us. (:

Yea, ECH guys are manlier than you think now.
(: and i'm pretty sure of that, much sure of that and very sure of that!

Oh well, birthdays are coming *wink*
and yes, i lost 200bucks!
So don't give me angry faces if i don't really come up with a decent present.
I'll try my best k!
Plus november's like a baby boom month. ):
HAHA broke already!

Alright alright, till another time!
I'm still scared.
Show me the lights and i'll cross the road.

Chapter 296 - California Girls

2010-10-17T11:09:00.002+08:00

California Girls are hot,
they have a nice tan, with a nicely toned bod.
Okay. Yes. Katy Perry.
She's my teenage dream.

Alright, whaoaoaoa.
You know the feeling of having lots to talk about but yea, just can't start?
Yea, it's been quite a while, always been like this.
I can write out my previous
i-tee-nary
(I don't know how to spell it, thought i knew but when typed out there's this red line underneath)
7th - 12th, it's been a long while, and today's the 17th.
10 days. And it went across the 10/10/10 mark too.
There's just this affinity i have with the number 10.
So far, every cinema seat i get this year, or maybe almost all, are along the 7-10/11 range.
Interesting huh? Restaurant tables too, we always happen to sit on table 10.
It's like my magic number or something.
Too bad my hotel room wasn't 210, infact it's 207 or 203 i am not sure.
Anyways, yea, 6 days in BANGKOK was awesomely awesome.

We were rushing, from place to place.
We cabbed like there's no cabs in SG.
We bargained even though stuffs are selling at S$0.50 already.
Coconut juice was only S$1.05,
compared to the usual fresh coconut in SG which costs like around 3 bucks.
Chatuchak was like a heaven for imitations. (I did not buy any imitations though)
Ray Ban shades, everyone had that, Chanel wallets, every other person has one.
Yea, Levi's stonewashed collection was scattered on the floor.
Converse had no ™ nor the registered Trademark logo the (R) thing.
Yea and i picked up a fake Ray Ban shades and wore it for awhile before throwing it away at the Bangkok airport.
We got berms! We got pouches! We got shirts! We got fedoras!
Yea, it was just a totally shopping trip, which i think if i'm younger i'll never enjoy that.

First day we went to Platinum mall, then Suan Lam night bazaar at night.
Street food was deliciously unhygienic. (:
We got this ultra fattening roti prata wrapped egg + sugar + condensed milk + banana + chocolate sauce if you'd like thing for 25-30 baht.
What a fatty steal.
&& we saw this group of European girls in a tuktuk beside our tuktuk,
who were unusually friendly and loose somehow.
Yea, we said hi and zoomed off in our tuktuk.

Then second day, we got cheated into going MBK, which was opened then,
and it was pretty expensive as we asked the locals.
Then cheated again by this security guy,
who got this tuktuk guy to drive us to the Chao Praya river.
Peter Chao's river. They said the floating market was on, but..
It was a Friday and floating market only opens on the weekends.
Assuming we got cheated we went off to book the river ride on a boat with the hotel instead.
Got cheated further, they said there's lots to see and all, but eventually as we went on the ride,
most of us nearly fell asleep.
Yea, and went to Banglapoo, i think that's the name. Hahah!
Yea, best currency exchange rates there. Shop shop shop.
And we did pedicure & manicure there!
I shed my feet skin, and it covered the whole floor.
& i forgot where did we have our dinner.
Oh yaaa, with Benson's dad's friend at some hotel called Grand Princess China!

Third day, CHATUCHAK, the highlight of the journey, from morning till night, we got lost, split up, and found each other again.
We're like haggering kings.
Yea, then dinner @ cabbages & condoms, don't ask me why.
Yea, & i have no idea why cabbages too.
The restaurant is an alert you about STDs and give 1 condom to each.
(I have no idea how to phrase that properly so yea, i know you'll understand)
& there's this booth which usually have either flyers or serviettes for people to take as they walk out,
and the serviettes and flyers are replaced with vanilla white condoms and pink floral condoms. Yea, we took whole lot of it.
Tried the condom over a bottle and yea, it's of pretty good quality. (:

Fourth day, 10/10/10.
Platinum first, A&W breakfast which totally sucked and ruined our morning.
My pants' zip gave way and Darren's slippers died.
So we needed some instant resources, Darren stole this pair of two right feet Birkenstock.
Haha, and yea i switched my slippers with his. Then Chatuchak, and this time, we split up, got our stuffs. :D
Darren, Bensley & me! (:
Then went off to our hotel first, and walked around for some roadside food.
Got this damn delicious tomyum with extra prawns and some other local delights.
&& Thanks Darren for the hat and styling clay! :D
Oh and ya, we had this massage session, it's CLEAN massage, not those with boom boom.
&& foot reflexology too. It was just "shiok" like really.

Fifth day!
And time for our Lumpinee/Rajadamnern experience.
Went to get the tixs, Darren paid for 3/4 of mine!
THANKYOU SO MUCH.
Then we had some roadside Kuay Chap, you can literally see houseflies laying eggs around there.
And the food was delicious due to it unhygienicity. Pig's blood!
MSG FLAVOURED. Yea, it was alright until the next morning where we battled with the toilet.
The matches we watched were of 18-20 year olds, and yea, they're like up till our arm's height.
Not that tall but very impressive.
They're like lightning fast and they make others bleed like volcanoes erupting.
Watched it till late night and tried to go get the Tomyum at our hotel's roadside,
but most of the stalls are closed.
Got some light food and snacks and went back.

Sixth day, time to get our equipment!
Yea got them all and went back to the hotel to slowly make our way to the airport.
Yeaaaaaaaa. And plane ride!
Kinda horrrible ride it was, turbulances (is that how you spell it?)
and some sharp headache while descending.
AND SG, i'm back (:

Chapter 295 - Bros Before Hos

2010-09-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

Hos refer to holes.
& i'm continuing assuming that you understand that.

"Bros before Ho(les)"
Yes, that's part of the Bro Code,
Bro Code, awesome.

I just woke up last Tuesday and realised that there's vacation classes.
Wonderful, and i missed half of class that day.
Had it all the way till today.
The class was better than previous class.
It about Starting a New Business, previously was Principles of Management.
Yea, guess you can tell their boringness level from the names.

Everything takes lotsa effort.
Yea so i'll put in the effort. (:
Nice it'll all be.

Sunday - Monday (Muaythai Camp)
Tuesday - Wednesday (HMS LAC Pre-camp)
Thursday - Tuesday (THAILAND)

It's all so so soon, just next week!
HAHA, and yes it's gonna be fun.
Looking forward to everything. (:

"If it makes sense then it's not love."

Chapter 294 - Tailors

2010-09-14T11:26:00.002+08:00

I am partially pissed.
I sent a whole lot of my clothes, jeans, shirts and all for alteration,
and they said i can go collect it today,
and i just went this morning,
guess what.
They haven't even started on my clothes.
Tomorrow morning then.
LACK OF CLOTHES.

Okay, 2 days back was the DM meetup for Kbox and Birthdays. (:
Awesome awesome time.
We have many singers.
We should form a musical team or something.
Okay i'm joking. (:

Polytechnic, studying in here and changing my life to suit this place changed me a lot.
It somehow teaches us to be more independent in a way.
Since i always depended on classmates last time to remind me of exam dates and all.
Now it's different. I have to check everything myself.
Somehow you don't get to see classmates until the day of the exams,
and yea, if you don't phone them, or just somehow seem to be pretty not close with them.
Then it's gonna be tough.
Going online is a solution. The MeL.
But yea, it's a whole lot more complicated than it sounds.
Important stuffs don't just pop right up when you log in,
you gotta traverse the entire Poly database,
from page to page and link to link before you'll be able to unearth the golden information.
(: Yes try hard.

Smiles are twisted these days. Don't make it that way.
It's not nice.

Chapter 293 - Men @ Work

2010-09-12T02:35:00.003+08:00

The many dumb things that a guy does to prove how dumb he is,
is actually the deepest things he's trying to make you see with his acts.

Seriously, when we try our best to show something deep,
we usually screw up and yea, end up saying/doing dumb stuffs.
In the presence of you of course.
Only in the presence of you.

The tagboard that's been staring at me/you all this while is pretty much dead.
Maybe i should switch to comments,
since comments are more awesome and like in tune with the posts it's with.
These late nights i spent playing games and movie-ing had taken its toll on my face.
With little bumps and all popping out, i seriously need some rest and yes,
quality pampering of the face.
Not my kinda thing but yes, for the retainment of sexiness i have to do it.

Alright i'm pretty much talking too much about nonsensical much.
I need a life.
Quited mafia 2, since the bugs really got me there.
Love Bruno Mars' "Just the way you are"
Help. Ouch.

Suppering like mad recently,
Han said i put on weight.
Gonna have a tummy soon.
Gonna lose the six babies to one fat lump.
OH NO.

MUMMY's coming down!
BYE!

Chapter 292 - NOT SCARED

2010-09-06T19:47:00.002+08:00

She's Erika Toda,
the hot girl in DeathNote.
She's really pretty and yes, i'm infatuated.
Haha, but i don't like the way she dressed in the movie.
Can't believe she fell for Light and was like willing to do anything for him and yet he tried to make use of her.
If i was Light i'd probably just date her and quit being Kira.

&& yea, i was playing Mafia 2 for like the past week,
awesome game, fantastic storyline,
too bad there's lots of bugs and all,
but stilll i enjoyed the game,
one more chapter to completion but there's some bug that causes the loading screen to load endlessly. ):
Well, Vito Scaletta, he's the main character of the game, and yes, the story really gives some awesome facts about the mafia.
Only people of Scicilian or Italian blood can join the mafia in the past.
That's why Japanese join the Yakuza.
The mafia is honorable and not as ruthless as those depicted in silly FB games like "mafia wars" and such.
To kill a member of another mafia family you have to have a meeting with all the bigshots and there must be mutual agreement to kill before they can execute the killing.
If they don't hold the meeting and just kill, a mafia war will start.
I learnt how to steal cars and all from the game, but yea,
running away from the police is easier in the game than in real life.
Dammit!

OHMY, i had this really freakish and disturbing nightmare this morning.
I had 2 actually, but only remembered one.
I knew it was a dream but yet i was really scared, like as if i was in an Inception movie,
where dying in a dream within a dream will cause me to wake up losing my mind.
Yea, i was at someplace in Bukit Timah road,
with my grandparents,
walking, crossing the road, saw this first huge canal, without railings,
then we crossed the crossroad, and at the second place, there was this similar canal too,
but it had traffic lights on it, apparently.
Cause we needa cross the canal in order to get to the other side of the road,
grandparents somehow got across damn quickly, i think i fell down.
And while i was running across, the lights turned red, and without another warning,
murky flood water rushed in, the torrent was rushing in at my height, so well,
i realised my phobia.
It's of deep waters,
i don't know why but i've always been scared of swimming in the seas and all that.
Even deep pools, i always have this weird idea that there are creatures like crocodiles,
octopuses, sharks and all in deep waters.
In deep pools, it's not possible but yea,
i'm always holding on to the fear of suddenly having the underwater floor opening up and releasing sharks or whatever inside.
Freakish huh.
Okay, back to the flood water rushing in at me.
The current was so damn strong,
but miraculously i grabbed on to the grasspatch at the side and yea,
managed to cling on, and knowing that the grass will eventually be uprooted,
I reached out for the railings which somehow appeared,
yea and hanged one, and my grandparents, somehow, like really somehow, walked away,
knowing i'm like about to drown in the bottomless deep waters.
So i mustered all of my strength within me and screamed to my grandpa,
and he turned, i just needed to feeling that someone's with me as i tried to climb up.
Cause i was really scared, so yea, he strolled over and doing a proper pullup out of the water,
i got up and out, wet and heavy, i woke up.
But i kept my eyes closed, too fearful to open my eyes.
Yea, maybe it's not that scary to you, but yea, if it happened to me, like really happen,
i think i'll shit my pants.

Youth meeting with guest person today, darling DARREN ANG. HAHA!
Yes, lovely to have him around, made jokes like no one could.
AND finally got to see Jaime after a long while, if you're reading this,
yea, i blogged and you slimmed down! HAHA.
Have more diarrhea sessions and soon you'll be some top model (:

Anyways, yea, been thinking lots these days,
perhaps the gaming and all gave me some time to think.
THINK (:

I WANNA CLUB REALLY SOON,
yes i'm not 18 yet!
BUT CAN SOMEBODY JUST BRING ME TO SOME CLUB AND HAVE FUN?
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Chapter 291 - Wishes

2010-09-04T01:12:00.006+08:00

A CLOCK TOWER IS BEAUTIFUL.
NIGHT SKIES ARE NEVER COLORFUL.
THE STARS WILL ALWAYS REMAIN TRUE.
THE MOON IS NEVER BLUE.
BLACK'S A DARK WHITE HUE.
WAIT FOR THE MOVING LEAVES' CUE.
THE NIGHT BREEZE IS COOL.
THE DARKNESS IS A TOOL.
YOUR LIFE'S ABOUT YOU.
What's wrong with you?
A NEW STANZA'S ON THE WAY.
THEY'RE COMING OUT TO PLAY.
WE ALL HAVE NOTHING TO SAY.
THE POTTER'S TENDING HIS CLAY.
LITTLE DEMONS THEY ALL SLAY.
Don't feel irritated okay.
WELL, THE WORLD IS FAT.
AND THAT'S A FACT.
OBESITY A FAD.
HIDING FACES BENEATH A HAT.
A LAZY PET CALLED THE CAT.
AND THE CAT'S CHASING THE RAT.
Why're you like that?
MANY THING WE DON'T DO BUT WE KNOW WE CAN.
OUR RULES WE LOVE TO BEND.
HUGGING, KISSING, SHAKE A HAND.
TURN TO SOMEBODY AND START TO RANT.
PASS SOME JOY AND LAUGHTER TO LEND.
You're still my bestest friend.

Chapter 290 - Hot Kid Milk Drink

2010-09-01T11:37:00.002+08:00

You know what's that?
What's the Hot Kid Milk Drink?
It's the Want Want drink,
you know, the one that got banned a few months back due to melamine?
But they're back now!
And it's awesome, i used to love it last time,
and i love it still.
It's an elixir to me, when i drink,
i feel happy and nothing else.
Helps me to live longer that way. (:

Okay, last night i think i slept a little crazily,
when i woke up this morning,
my bolster was like super far away from me. South.
And i've got cuts on the inside of my nose, OUCH, i know.
And the morning bath was miserable.
The sink was choked, so i had to brush my teeth in the shower cubicle,
the water wasn't warmed up enough, so chilly water.
Ran out of soap, like totally empty bottle there.
Yea, and i don't know what's happening to my house's drainage system,
the cubicle was like a little flooded too. ):
Bad morning.

Okay, yesterday was a rather nice day.
Woke up for the earliest time since like school stopped.
Went to JE library to study with Jaime,
not really study with, we're just studying at the same place at the same time.
Yea, I was at level four while she's at level three,
this is to ensure that we do not distract each other.
Nice plan eh? Yea, then lunch together and all (:
And back to study! And i got some books and went to find her this time,
sat beside her and read the books while she studied.

There's this quote "A friendly look, a kindly smile, one good act, and life's worthwhile."
:D

Chapter 289 - Races

2010-08-30T22:25:00.002+08:00

I really think getting a Chinese would have been better for the movie.

Chapter 288 - Care

2010-08-29T20:05:00.004+08:00

"If you're still there,
I don't wanna know that you no longer care."

Cherish things that are still here,
a basic note, essential for emotional stability,
and everything else.

Thanks for the letter,
little things like these mean a lot to me,
and I'm sure such things mean a lot to everyone else to.
A little "remember me, with love" will fulfill its purpose and also,
widen the smile on the recipient's face.

Little things like these, yea.
Lovely, it sketches a little bit of you in my life,
and many little things provide sketches of whoever who's giving them,
on the lives of the "people who're receiving".
Sketches form pictures, and pictures trigger memories.
Nicely pieced together.

& thanks again for the letter. (:
It's going into my cherish chest.

Oh yea, what's a cherish chest?
Cherish chest is my special personal chest which looks,
naturally dull (since it's me) on the outside,
in which on the inside is filled with all the letters,
little toys or whatnots that I received over the years.
However, since the chest is a little bit small,
only stuffs which really mean a lot to me are admitted inside,
and good things always come in small pieces,
so yea.

The box, to me, is love.
Even though some stuffs may be from like a lost friend or something,
well, memories last forever, if not they won't be called memories right?
:D Triggers are what I need.

Chapter 287 - Seramthgin

2010-08-23T12:20:00.002+08:00

I had 3 freaking freakish nightmares last night, or should i say, this morning.
Not exactly nightmares, but they left me with this feeling of unsure-ness and all, plus the last one was freakishly scary.
I only remembered 2, so yea, gonna write a novel 'bout them.
Joking, but here goes.

One.
It started out when i was in my dad's old house, mummy not around, just, bro, dad and i.
We were like panicking over something, not sure what, packed our stuffs and left.
Met the uncles, their faces weren't clear though, but yea familiar like my dad's brothers.
We were on an escape journey like some fugitive group or something.
& I saw Hitler when we alighted from the vehicle we were traveling in, most probably a coach.
LOL HITLER! And yea, i greeted him, with a "Hi fuhrer." FOR DUNNO WHY.
And he ignored me, and i can see that the rest of the people traveling with us kinda disliked him,
and they ignored him totally as he walked around inspecting the people.
Then i looked around and realised we alighted at Potong Pasir, and we went up this unfamiliar block, and somehow, the inside of this flat we went into was my grandma's house.
& i woke up.

Two.
I can't remember.

Three.
This happened when i woke up and fell back asleep this morning.
Freaking scary. Okay, it happened when the Muaythai people and i, we're all in one house.
Then we were playing horror video games, playing playing.
& i took out this either silent hill/resident evil or some weird horror game that involves some person who kills people in a particular place.
So we played the game, and somehow, when the game started, we got transported inside.
The game involves us to drive this weird vehicle, somehow, to explore the place, and it started in this underground tunnel.
Then it all seemed like part of the real world and part of the place i lived in.
So i dunno why, but we got this girl to drive the vehicle, while all of us squeezed in the vehicle.
Then it drove out of the basement tunnel area, and onto the forest ground, which i recognise as a place that i walk through quite often to get to somewhere.
Then we went on, and saw this sign planted next to a similar vehicle but destroyed in a violent manner.
The sign says: "Don't give up, blah blah blah," then some laughter like hahaha, at the top.
It was all written in blood on a black piece of board.
So we continue driving the thing forward, and then i got so scared cause the place is so familiar and suddenly the killings of the area started to picture in my mind,
and i saw myself walking on the paths and yea, getting killed, and we ventured deeper inside the place.
& i woke up.

Video games are nice.
Give inspirations for nightmares and dreams (:

Chapter 286 - You Can See

2010-08-22T23:00:00.004+08:00

I think i'm numb already.
like numb you know.
Numb to whatever feelings i should feel.
Sometimes not letting these feelings out,
kinda overwhelm me in the following days when i'm not supposed to feel that way.

There's a reason for all these.
It's painful deep down inside,
but well, since i'm already so good at it,
why not keep it up, right?

Now my life, from my own observation of my thoughts,
is just a helter-skelter run from place to place,
in search of something to live for.
I still fall back to the old things, or should i say the old people i live for.
But yea, sometimes, people change right.

Unless i have a son, a wife and a family,
yea i can say i can live for them forever.

But many things in life are seasonal,
with so many fickle-minded people out there,
disappointments are so damn common.
And it's all these disappointments that hurt the most.
And when it happens too often,
you tend to stray away.
Just like how people give up on religion when their hopes and aspirations are not met.
Well, these applies to friends too.

I can't help but ponder over such stuffs, like all the time.
Trips home from trainings especially.
Simple things, little things, may not seem much to you,
but to another it might be something, something big.
Lean back and look, look at what you value most.

Yea, some words hurt a whole lot too.

&& thanks guys for those tags of liking this and that, and encouraging words. (:
Love 'em.

J: What deadline?

Chapter 285 - A is for Assassination

2010-08-12T15:12:00.002+08:00

No no, i'm not gonna assassinate anyone.
Just figuring out how assassins work.
Somehow, they seem to take care of their foe quickly and pretty effortlessly.
That is what we see in movies that is.
Real assassinations requires the assassin to overcome the mental barrier of having to kill someone,
making the escape and the tedious work of researching for the right moment and the best method.

This led me to reading up on vital points of the human body.
Since, IVP is just this Saturday.
Well it seems that the human body is really vulnerable, and the body armor/equipment covers all these points.
So.. I guess we just have to fight hard. And smart.

And my opponent is 62kg.
But i'll see him as 26kg,
cause i'm 58kg, so when i see him as 26, he'll see me as,
85kg (:
Smart?
Almost huh.

Thank you everyone for the support, i'll do my best with guarantees. (:
Cause i know i'll really fight real hard, like real real hard. (:

That's all.
A is for assassination (:

Chapter 284 - The greatest of these is LOVE

2010-08-01T23:19:00.006+08:00

Crazy moments are moments which everyone smile/laugh the most.
even the fiercest men can give a charming and unrestrained smile when they just be their silly selves.

I am all alone in the living room now.
I learnt something today, that no matter what,
everything, should be based on love,
everything we do, the way we see things,
all should be based on love.

Best judgements and decisions are the ones based on love.
Only those that will affect others though.
Since out of all the qualities/fruits, the greatest is love.
Yes love.

And i was sleeping and yet thinking in the service this morning.
Many things i was worried about, and pondered upon.
And even though i am like not in a very good mood whenever i'm with the CG,
but still i try to stay with them.
Well, anyways, even though there's this barrier, i still feel that there's a connection with God.
And yes, it's real, i really can feel this longing of mine to just you know, see Him.
Well, and it's that that kept me with the CG even though arguments and disputes broke out.
Yea, and Pst. Phil Pringle shared that commitment, is somehow linked to trust and all.
Under the theme love.
I know it's kinda rough and blurred these concepts of mine, but pardon me, i was half asleep throughout the service and yea, kinda thought through the words that stayed.
Loving God wholeheartedly and loving people fervently.
Well, okay, i know i'm getting all biblical but wait, it's gonna make sense.
Even if you don't believe in any God, take it and apply it to a close friend, or a family member.
You see, since love is such a great word, such a great feeling, such a great thing by itself, we should see it as a connection/bond that connects us with everyone we love.
Yes, redundant, but once again, makes sense right?

And loving someone, you will be committed to the person, and in our case, God.
Being committed to someone, you will go all out and help the person in every way you can and every way possible.
Unless it's not within your means, then yea, you should/will give it a try.
Commitment also means faithfulness, and being faithful means when you stray a little, you know, you will still come back, and when you do, repent.
Thus, forgiveness, but that's only in the case of God, for others it might be tougher to get forgiveness. Okay, that was a little digression.
Faithfulness, trust is next, and it goes hand in hand with our commitment and love.
Having faith in someone, sometimes the faith runs out, and we will just gasp,
"we put our trust in you, just do your best."
and trust is the backup battery that every phone has access to when you key in the secret words, just when faith is running out.
SO, now's the meaty part,
since faith,
commitment,
trust,
love and
all are like somehow linked,
we can actually say we have our lives insured. :D
Or in the case of another person, we can have their actions and everything else insured.
It's love, the love that needs to be there, and all else can disappear.
Cause with love, you trust the person, you love the person, you have faith and know you can stay faithful, and you will stay committed to each other and each other's needs.

Somehow i have a feeling that you guys will not understand the entire chunk of text i have written above, but yea, i just need some sorting out of my thoughts, heh.
And yes, coming to piece these together really made me feel that the entire thing, entire plan was just majestically, wondrously, blessedly, and beautifully created.
It's like, we have to do just one thing, and all our worries are like nothing.

Just like how Jesus made life easier by summarising the entire ten commandments into
"loving God wholeheartedly and loving people fervently."
it's just God's way of making life easier for the human race whose lives' are somehow wickedly complicated due to the struggles from the past and the brokenness of the current world,
and since God can't directly appear before everyone and change things for us, and would rather give us the choice to choose our paths and our own way into loving Him,
He gives us little blessings,
little guides to life,
that will make life somehow easier yet longer. :D
Cause when you're happy you live longer.

Okay, well, maybe it was all a figment of some small thought that got microscoped into such a chunk of text or maybe it's just me feeling good about typing a whole lot today, it's all up to you.
I know who i love and i know i love Him. (:
You all too. I will try harder to love those who are harder to love.
Nobody is perfect, we all know that, the guilt card is a weak strategy to change a person.
Try again (:

God loves you. He knows He does. (: & you know He does too.

Only love, but not loving is amplified and enlarged cause it's the greatest of all the fruits, while loving is like having us cut up the fruit and then feeding it.

Chapter 283 - Anything with pressure isn't love.

2010-07-29T09:46:00.003+08:00

Childish we were when we were still young and free,
mature we are when now nothing's carefree.
For fun we seek these things are free,
when nothing's holding you back and you feel so free.

Twitter is loud, these days, really loud, sometimes, it's too loud.

Somehow, with these aching legs, i kinda survive each day barely but still i managed to survive.
It's like school from morning till afternoon, and then training, and then home for projects.
It's been like that for quite awhile, and even last minute work feels like it's never last minute.

After today and tomorrow, it's gonna be five days of training,
and it's the hardest i've ever done. (:
Proud of myself.
But, all these kinda make me feel alone.
Like, somehow, we study, train, rest, wash, shit, eat, everything.
But it's like lonesome company.

I think i just need quality time, to slack and do nothing,
or maybe some late-night hangout or something.

And ARGH! You're so gonna get erased from my mind.
Actually you told me before, when you've lost interest you won't reply, and so now i know.
Well, better standards then (:

This will be the first year when i'm ever on church and gonna miss FOP.
I wanna pass this next grading, i don't wanna train so hard and yet lose the chance to fight.

How you like my new hair?
I'm feeling more comfortable with it, since it's not noob (:
& i wanna do moore stupid things.
And eat good food, but this will have to wait.

Holidays/exam's study break's comin' and you know what to expect (:
Heh, 6 more minutes and i gotta be in class since i've already missed an hour of it. :D
HAHAHA, okay, bye guys.

"I'm hoping we can make some wishes outta, not airplanes, but pillows."

Chapter 282 - ODRIAH

2010-07-26T22:07:00.003+08:00

I woke up to the mess,
irritating disturbing my rest.
That was what my previous hair did best,
and it was beginning to feel like a pest.

So off i went with deep emotions,
taking the bus down to bugis junction,
to a hairdresser that does it's function,
oh and now i'll mention,
my hair's gone, no don't feel sad for me,
cause now i get to enjoy the breeze.
At least it's new with some twist,
and it gives you all something to tease.

Don't judge me for that,
my hair's not how i feel.
And i'm not fat,
i'm just eating my fill.

Impulse made me do it.
Blame it on impulse.

Chapter 281 - Crosses

2010-07-25T01:30:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt, like,
getting caught in a situation where you respect someone...
Okay, only some will understand.

Well, still, back to the words, i'm a bad influence. Please don't call me up and tell me to get these words out of this post. But yea.

Well, i love everyone.
Respect everyone.
But please, i really don't like the word "selfish".
Hate that word, and yea.

S3 or S2?

I'm at a loss for words now, seriously.
I care for these brothers of mine, i really do.
& you too, my good friend.

Competition's 2+ weeks away.
Dieting's a tough one.
Jog tomorrow i will.

<3 thanks.

Chapter 280 - Cat Duck Rabbit

2010-07-05T14:34:00.004+08:00

Well, i saw this mattress cover with the words, "Dear friend, are you happy?"

Hmm, i guess so.

You know what, i felt like it's all back to where it began, and yea.
I feel kinda frustrated at my own patience.

Yes, i don't understand at all.

You have your friends who are always there anyway.
I guess i'm just another friend.

Butterflies then.

Chapter 279 - Annoyance

2010-06-30T14:52:00.003+08:00

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Chapter 278 - Extravagance

2010-06-19T21:29:00.004+08:00

Random pictures to random notes,
Random note #1:
Well, i have an eye candy in school. (:

Random note #2:
My eye candy smiled and waved at me in school today.
She's hawt, hott, hot, hortttttte!

It had been a hell of a time since my last update.
It wasn't only hellish, it was fun with some punk added in.
Well, and somehow i relate more to people now.
And i kinda love attention. Who doesn't rightt?

Thank YOU Jaime for talking and tolerating my crap so much.
It was really enjoyable poking fun at you.
Alright, i know i'm childish still, but yea, maturing in progress!

Well, first up, this thing never left my mind the moment it happened.
I got locked up for lemme see, 6am to 11pm, which is around 5 hours!
I'm partially proud of it yet ashamed.
It's a punkish experience, cool huh.
But for a stupid reason/crime, trespassing.

Well, protection to my brother.
We swam the swimming pool in SA.
Awesome nightssss.
Hehe, join us sometime alright.
Probation gonna end on 25th June, stay tuned.
More awesome nights coming up!

I'm eating udon now, okay random!

Yea, the police HQ wasn't nice.
Police smoke, and they smoke a hell lot.
They stink.
But there was actually this nice guy who gave me a plastic cup in my lockup cell.
(: I was locked up alone in a lonely cell. ):
However, the experience was fun.
And i don't understand police code, te way they interrogate seems rather ..
I forgot the word for it, the "no point" word.
Cause they just wanna hear you say that you're sorry and you know you did wrong.
That's all.

& my maid's watching some malay drama now, and the man's violent.
Okay i'm being random again.

And i made friends with this other locked-up guy,
he was there for 4 days already i heard.
And he showed me some neat karate moves,
and we were not supposed to communicate,
so he just signalled and all.

How childish for this to happen huh?
Well, i'm gonna do more such stuffs. :D
Cause they're exciting.

& if you're a police and you're reading this,
my name is Jennifer. (:
I stay at AMK.
Yes. That's right.

For the past two days i slept at 5+am,
1 day i woke up at 9.30am = 4.5 hrs
today i woke up at 7 = 2 hrs
NICE HUH.
I feel energetic, but when i'm not moving i feel like a lump of poo.

PLEASE COME JOIN US @ RYDAHMS,
Top Maple Private Server. (:
/find BigJohnson
Guild name: Scrotums
COOL RIGHTTT!
WHATTAYA WAITING FOR!?

Heartxzxz to those who Heartxzxzx me + some who don't Heartxzxz me too.
HUG HUG.
Thank you!

Chapter 277 - Love Ya

2010-06-06T14:39:00.002+08:00

Love Ya, SS501

Yeah, huh
Here we go once again
Guess who's back, let's go
This one is all about you
I really hate you but I love you
So what can I do? Now listen

Neoreul bomyeon apa, sumi neomu gapen, ijen naesun japa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajieanhneunde wae?
Why don't you get it?
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneun georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Oneureun yeotaekkeot gidaryeosseo
Mianhae ganjeolhi baraewasseo
Nal bitgyeogattdeon ni uraen sarangi janinhage kkeulnagireul
Geusaram ijeo, ijen jiweobeoryeo
Eochapi neohaguneun eoolriji anhaneungeol
So baby wont you come to me
I'll make you make you happy

Neoreul bomyeon apa, sumi neomu gapen, ijen naesun japa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajieanhneunde wae?
Why don't you get it?
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneun georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Cheoeumen haengbokhagil baraesseo
Geude birok geusaram yeopeseorado
Mideosseoseo. Na eopsi haengbokhadamyeon, geugeolro chungbunhaesseo
Hajiman, neoui nunmol ipuyeo. Neoui seulpeumi boryeo
Amuri chamabwado andwae ijen jichyeo michyeo
I cannot let it go, I gotta take you
Ije uri unmyeongingeol yeah

Neoreul bomyeon apa, sumi neomu gapen, ijen naesun japa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajieanhneunde wae?
Why don't you get it?
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneun georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Eotteohke neon moreuneunde? Hapil geu saraminde?
Neoui apeun sarangddawin nan bolsueoptneunde
Ijteo, ni kaseum myeondeulgehaneun geureon nappeunsarang
Ijen jipeochyeo please! Apeun neoreul guhagesseo
Geoule bichin neoui nunmuli sorieopsi, euimodoeopsi heureulddae
Naegaseumeun wanjeonhi jjiteojineungeol, I can cross over the sea
Nareul mideojwi, haneule maengsehalge
Urin majimak sarangi dwiltenikka yeah

Neoreul bomyeon apa
Sumi neomu gapa
I simjangi apa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajianhaneunde wae?
Why don't you get it? Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneul georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya
Let me love you baby!

Andwae,
Andwae,
Neoeopsin...

Chapter 276 - Lovely things.

2010-06-02T15:38:00.002+08:00

Fancy that.

Well, haven't been blogging for like years (:
haha, and yea, gonna be back soon.

Some words,
Asia Conf was totally mind snapping and awesome.
The families there.
Drama, W412.

Everyone.
Loves.
Dr. Reinhard Bonnke was especially good (:

Love everyday.
Love the days the drama people got to sit together.
FUN.
& Warm. (:

Hotdogs hotdogs. (:
Who wants some hotdogs?

Tag replies:

Willie: Thanks bro! You too JIAYOU! Holidays are coming! Let's go out soon!

Stranger: (Y) (:

Fiona: Yes yes next time! HAHA, waa, damn long never see you! ): Let's go pool pool!

Sebas: What is GGWP? HAHA, yea coming soon. I long time never train alr, cause of AC and drama. HAHA, yea, thanks man! (:

J: <3 back to you.

Chapter 275 - Fruit loaf

2010-05-19T09:53:00.002+08:00

The days have been rather lethargic.
Now i feel like a hundred pounds of meat.
I feel so tired, and somehow weak.
I really need undisturbed long hours of sleep.

& my ulcer's killing me too.
I can really fall asleep anywhere man.

Should i go for training today?
It's like there's motivation,
but i have no energy left ):
Should I?

Indecision can really kill.
thinking so much is even more tiring.

Assignments, piling up.
One is due next week. Haveta start really really soon!

Goodgame guys.
More combos. (:

_____________

Fiona: Haha, okay, no problem. Yea, you now confirm damn pro in pool right?

Stranger: Haha, yea yea, and sweet! CRUNCHY & SWEET.

Kezia: Serious, cause i did not understand the word. And haha, lol, i'll never do such a dare man!

Grace: Rahhhh whatt? (:

Chapter 274 - Scientific terms are just simple terms made scientific

2010-05-14T12:44:00.002+08:00

To Kezia:

I did not know the meaning of that "chim" meningitis word, so i went to check it out and realised it's pretty scary.

Medical Dictionary

men·in·gi·tis definition

Pronunciation: /ˌmen-ən-ˈjīt-əs/
Function: n
Inflected Form: pl -git·i·des Pronunciation: /-ˈjit-ə-ˌdēz/

1 : inflammation of the meninges and especially of the pia mater and the arachnoid
2 : a disease that may be either a mild illness caused by any of numerous viruses (as various coxsackieviruses) or a more severe usually life-threatening illness caused by a bacterium (especially the meningococcus or the serotype designated B of Hemophilus influenzae ), that may be associated with fever, headache, vomiting, malaise, and stiff neck, and that if untreated in bacterial forms may progress to confusion, stupor, convulsions, coma, and death

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What a scary disease..

I found motivation, it was hiding within me, smashed up and scared,
finding it had never been better.
After hearing the words, "you've de proved, you needa buck up."
I got fired up.
I don't care about getting injured now (:
Just wanna fight hard!

3.5 rounds of sparring,
i'm still not ready, but soon, i'll be. (:
Thanks to those who led be into the painful path.
I'm growing from it. (:

Chapter 273 - HOMEWORK

2010-05-13T13:00:00.002+08:00

I just realised that i need to use the blog to submit assignments.
): OH MAN can't use it to store poems.
SO i've moved the Frenchie bloggie to a new place!
live-subtitles.bs.com (:
Please do not go to the other blog yea. (:
Cause my homework will be there :p

School's boring, and everyone should feel this way,
cause, school's boring.

Teenagers are easily bored. Right?

Chapter 272 - ants

2010-05-12T15:53:00.001+08:00

Chapter 271 - French.

2010-05-12T13:49:00.003+08:00

Bonjour chers lecteurs! (:

I've created a new blog for one of my assignments lately,
and it's a blog of poems, fresh new poems,
some may seem similar to the ones posted on this site before,
but it's all cause my style of writing, which won't change.

I'm really excited about the blog, so feel free to comment over there yea!
Its introductory side-bars are all in french.

Blog link: live-subtitles.bs.com

Feel free to link that blog up!

Cheers!

Chapter 270 - Cyanide Poisoning.

2010-05-10T21:59:00.003+08:00

Apple seeds are poisonous, bet you didn't know that.

And a seed is not a living thing until the roots grow out, bet you didn't know that too.

And bus concession saves you the most money, and mine's expiring tomorrow!

I need 50 dollars badly ):
Real badly.
Either i travel and don't eat,
or i eat and don't travel.

There's lecture tomorrow despite the E-Learning thing going on.

& i love my attachment centre, there's way too many mixed blood kiddos to ignore.
I love their accents, their behaviour and the way they relate to one another.
There's French, British, American, Japanese, Myan-mese, Indonesian/Javanese, Japanese, and Korean.
They all speak differently.
I especially like two of the children, the British one and the Korean one, they have really really nice accent.

& i was reading 'bout different kinds of poisoning in the centre's nap-time just now, and came across alcohol poisoning.
There're many different symptoms of alcohol poisoning, but yea, just about 0.40% alcohol in our blood can cause half our body to break down.
Imagine the damage those drunks are causing to themselves. D:

Fight of Characters, oh man i own in that game (:

And ANNE HATHAWAY IS HOT.

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Oh yea, nearly slipped my mind,
replies to the tags, i'm sorry i'm late.

Sebastian: haha now you know, i did not know too, until when i was looking through pictures of bananas and it popped out. Disgusting huh.

...: Aye i really can't guess, and nah it's not that i'm ignoring just that i did not update till now. Tell me who are you, please. :D

Germaine: Haha yea ewwwwww, imagine that bunch of bananas turning into slugs, and you unknowingly plucked one out and starts munching on it. :p

Willie: Haha aye i think i did, cause most of the bananas i ate were kinda squishy :D

Chapter 269 - Crush

2010-05-01T13:19:00.003+08:00

Not so nice, a banana slug.

Nice, a banana. (:

What kind of person will be so naive and yet so loose?
It's only been a day, and the words being used are like as though you've known me for years.
I don't know, all this stickiness is smothering me.
It's very irritating in a way.

Well, it stopped, like finally.
MuayThai training is more fun now. (:
With all the freshies, we can finally teach them! WAHAHA!
Plus the intake's so big,
there's lots of interesting people.

I'll give up on some people, totally.
cause i can't stand the fact that being a friend is based on moods.

TWTTER is fun, if you haven't found out.
Do join us in the fun, yea?

Chapter 268 - 300th

2010-04-28T14:11:00.003+08:00

There were 2 poems which i cooked up in class,
classes over the span of these two weeks actually (:

Here's the first one done in 10 minutes, what a feat.

Past & Present, Education

In the past of this educational field,
they have no games, but worksheets used.
There's only one method for all children,
only one way for them to learn.
There's no fusion of learning and fun,
it's either time to read or time to run.
Materials have to bought by parents,
not like these days, where materials are in abundance.

It is a blessing to be a child these days,
as children learn through songs and plays.
Attention given were individualised,
as teachers teach in what they specialise.
Children learn as they explore,
as they're read fables and folklores.
This is the difference,
between the past and the present.

Nursery Rhyme Gone Wrong

Betty Botter bought some butter,
to make a good ol' batter,
but she found the butter bitter.
So she used it to make her face supple,
and kept some for supper,
and gave the rest to her friend Peter.
Her friend Peter too the butter,
ate it and became fatter,
the he became very clever,
and all these's kinda whatever.

Chapter 267 - Upon this rock

2010-04-21T14:28:00.003+08:00

I went to look for this song,
titled, Upon This Rock - Sandi Patty.
Lovely song.

It reminds me of the times of old.
Yea, and it's gospel,
renouncing the faith in Peter.

I LOVE EATING BREAKFAST CEREAL IN CLASS.
YOU KNOW.
KOKOCRUNCH ESPECIALLY.
Having ITA now, if you look back, you can see i've done this module before.
And it's the same teacher but she seems friendlier now, but she still don't like me.
I think.
Cause she said i look like girl ):

Do i?

I'm bored, are you?
I can simply fall asleep.

Curly Hair owns.

Replying Kezia: COMBINE ALL THE BANDAIDS TGT? NAH WE HAVE CHERYL THE MEGA BANDAID :D

Replying Cheryl: HAHA SPEAKING BANDAID EH :D YO KEZ! SHE CAN SPEAK! BETTER THAN 7-11 ONES! :D

Chapter 266 - FEAR

2010-04-11T11:50:00.003+08:00

"When winter comes in summer, when there's no more forever,
when lies become the truth,
that's when i'll stop loving you."

It's hard for everyone to trust one another,
for the things we see are not always the things that are supposed to be.
Some people are just too good at putting up false fronts.
However, still, there will be a couple of people who stand close to you with transparency,
and these are the people whom deserve our trust.

HMSFOC,
what a night, what a morning.
(: Eric and I sneaky sneaky,
we were like ninjas,
we couldn't help it,
since our first glorious and open entrance was abruptly confronted by the camp "BIGHEADS"
Scary, but i couldn't help laughing when i see their fats faces showing some kinda, disgusted and angry look.
Their faces show one thing.
I HAVE NO IDEA.

I WANNA SPLIT MY BODY INTO MANY MANY!

"It is said, that a man should show no fear.
A man should show that he is secure,
however many men these days are insecure.
And they resort to lowdown acts, and become vulgar,
to show their "manliness" which is so damn boorish and childish." - TISSUE

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
It's LIKE it never HAPPENED before. Agree?

Chapter 265 - Green Bottle

2010-04-11T11:31:00.007+08:00

The green bottle,
went through much torture,
much suffering before finally becoming a powerful weapon.

It was pierced, and smoked, and burnt, all things cruel were done to it,
just to make it strong.

The pain, the insides.

Take a deep breath, cool down, relax.
A man need not be angry and rough all the time.
If there's a need, the skies will be brighter.

Twitter is fun. (:
I'm bored.
&& Yea, play MMA Pro Fighter on FB!

Chapter 264 - FUJIMOUNTAIN

2010-04-06T11:29:00.003+08:00

Painful huh?

Angels (:

Cramming up our lives with things that don't mean anything to us means that we are going in the wrong direction.
However, i feel we are still to young and immature to decide what's important to us.
Like, career and education, we all know it's important, for our future, that is, and not presently important to us, so we would rather do things which are pretty much important to us at the moment.

POM is really killing me, that's why i'm blogging in class,
it's like no end to boredom here.
I'm hungry too.

Seriously, drama left me with many memories,
somehow not going for rehearsals anymore gives me some kinda withdrawal symptoms.

"rlnd rs nelorios h vwawrdd heastoaos ance lean ee ta mnkedo"

Chapter 263 - Up and Down

2010-04-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

Days days, night nights we spent. (:
Happy times, put aside everything and focus.
Easter 2010 was a blast.
It blew our minds.
(: Gonna miss everyone and everything!

"Imagine you're like the fabled King Midas, and you have the power to convert matter with a single touch. Except that instead of gold, everything you touch turns into shit. And everything it touches turns to shit. Before you know it, the whole world is shit, and it's all your fault."

picked it up on some page in Cracked.com, funny stuffs they provide.
I need sleep! I need to eat.

My skin's re-peeling!!

UNAGI!

Chapter 262 - Back to the early days

2010-03-30T07:51:00.003+08:00

The perfect reminder that i should adjust my body clock back to a Singaporean's.

Oh yes, it's early once again.
It's been so long since i was able to wake up this early.
(: Certificate in Business.
Had no idea it was today till yesterday.
And now, my laptop's screen is flickering like a sparstic man having spasms.

I am the raspberry man.
Smell me, i remind you of mixed berry juice.

Drama yesterday and later.
EXCITEMENT.

Gonna send dear Fairboy for repair soon.
Maybe it's cause i'm turning tanned that's why Fairboy's having difficulty accepting me back.
Thus, flickering and spasm-ing. :p

Gotta go! Mummy's waiting!
~

Chapter 261 - So wanted to

2010-03-28T13:25:00.002+08:00

I so wanted to go drama. (:

But yea it's cancelled today,
only main role actors needed.
Shall take a break then ~

Well, somehow, drama sparks some kinda happy feelings in me.
When we pray in drama it's so different.
I feel happy there.
I guess that's why ministry's important.
But i don't think i'm serving there,
it's more like have fun. (:
Friends and all.

There might be some kinda hope after all (:

I keep playing the game "Angry Birds" on my itouch lately.
It's addictive just as the reviews wrote. (:
And still, i'm addicted to the song, "We'll Be A Dream"

Chapter 260 - Lay down your arms, give up the fight

2010-03-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

The struggle of dominion will eventually break any form of relationship.
We all wish to be loved, not to be dominated or controlled.

3am, what a beauty.

My back's a goner, mummy's not back to hep me put moisturizer on.
And i can't do it on my own, cause i don't have it,
it's in her room and her room is locked.

I'm scared!

Aspects.

It takes a heart to love,
a heart to hate.
It takes a heart to serve,
a heart for fate.

Sometimes we try to hard,
and sometimes we don't even try.
Sometimes we just ignore, and live in the facade,
once in a while heaving a sigh.

At times we try to please,
at times we give up pleasing.
Opportunities are often not seized,
and thus hurtful remarks we sing.

Mostly it's not the words,
but the silence that hurts.
Initiative's a free thing,
and none of us deserve to be waited on like a king.

We act in various ways,
when facing various people.
It's like an ever-changing phase,
where we have to tweak our demeanor.

It'd always been like that,
as humans struggle to live up to what life expects.

Chapter 259 - OhGOSH.

2010-03-26T14:48:00.003+08:00

That'll be my surprised dead face if i get anymore sunburns.
Maybe.
Read up and learnt that,
if a human suffers from 5 moderate sunburns in his or her lifetime,
it doubles his or her chance of getting skin cancer.
Having fair skin already makes it like a really high chance of it.
Plus how easily i get sunburnt and all.
Well, i think i got it more than 5 times, and it's not a moderate burn.
Well, sunblock's gonna be my next best friend.

You know the song,
We'll Be A Dream by We The Kings Feat. Demi Lovato
It's a really nice song. (:

Chapter 258 - Chunky Skin

2010-03-26T11:17:00.003+08:00

I can literally feel the chunks of skin curling up, ready to be plucked or ready to fall off.
It's disgustingly pleasurable.
My face's peeling too.
It's slowly cracking up, i feel like a hundred year old dragon shedding it's skin now.
The redness on my body's still there,
and i can't scratch my face i how i used to already!
Oh man, anybody wants some MacSkin Sandwich? (:

My shoulder looks like it had some meteor crash on it recently,
one holey patch of fresh new skin surrounded by debris of the old skin.
Brown and pink.

Can somebody tell me which services are we attending for Easter? (:

Chapter 257 - My Oh.

2010-03-25T18:03:00.001+08:00

I think i just lost a friend..
):

Chapter 256 - Fury Of The Night.

2010-03-25T13:00:00.005+08:00

This is Astrid,

& this is Hiccup.

Okay, if you're gonna watch How To Train Your Dragon in cinemas,
please skip this post, cause i'm 'bout to spoil the surprises.
But even if you can't hold back and start reading.
I assure you that the movie'll still blow your head off. (:
To me, it's better than AVATAR.
_______

The Fearsome NightFury.
Never was one slain, catching a glimpse of it means you're about to die.
It's dark scales blend in with the night.
It's breath creates a ball of fire which explodes upon contact.
But one has befriended it. Hiccup is his name.
The scrawniest viking ever, son of the buff viking chief.

I feel like i'm writing a summary for the movie.
But no, it's just such a fantastic movie that we should all watch.
It's rather heart-warming to see dragons and humans unite and all.
Plus,
it's really nice to see all the cool visual effects that Dreamworks animated.
Dreamworks claimed they spent the most money on this movie.
And i bet they did not regret it.
They own Pixar! :D

And it all came from a book.

Meaning there'll be sequels to it!
OH YES.

I wanna have a dragon as a pet too.
Preferably a NightFury. :D

Chapter 255 - Will it be?

2010-03-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

Hope we'll get back to the days we started.
I can't help but think.

Chapter 254 - The days

2010-03-21T02:13:00.001+08:00

It was 9 days.
9 freaking days which i felt so lost.
10th to 19th.

Chapter 253 - Raews

2010-03-21T00:12:00.001+08:00

I Swear I'll Change.

Chapter 252 - Holding your hands

2010-03-20T13:22:00.004+08:00

Sorry

Indeed I was shocked,
when you had to find out that way.
And it is my fault,
as I went astray.

Filled with remorse,
I know I hurt you bad.
Now I'll have it to solve,
and I know it'll be sad.

I'm sorry,
and I know you've heard that many times.
I'm sorry,
for my terrible heinous crime.

I'm still holding on to this you and me,
I'm really sorry,
I was really stupid then you see,
and I'm really really sorry for the times you worried.
As I know you're the one for me.

I (L) YOU

Chapter 251 - Break me bones

2010-03-14T23:55:00.002+08:00

"I used to dream about, the life I'm living now,
I know that there's no doubt, I made it, I made it."
"I Made It" - Kevin Rudolf featuring Jay Sean, Birdman & Lil' Wayne

Slowly slowly, everyone will eventually come to realisation.

It's true i am superficial, and i'm sure everyone is superficial,
just that some are more and some are less (:
Don't worry.

A Key that opens many locks is a masterkey,
while a lock that gets opened by many keys is a shitty lock.
- Came across some poster kinda picture in facebook with this description

Chapter 250 - Whatever that makes you happy.

2010-03-12T22:50:00.003+08:00

I have no idea too.

I hope i made someone happy today (:
IT Fair! After being at the fair..
I concluded that 70% of Singaporean females are not satisfactory to the eyes,
or in other words, fat.
Okay, i'm not trying to be mean, but yea, sometimes,
working hard to obtain the number 8 figure is worth it.

(: Yea, and i'm not talking 'bout you reading this.
And also, guys, there're around 65% of the guys there who're kinda out of shape.
I'm not saying that i'm in shape or whatever, but yea,
don't get too roundedly-big.
And they bumped me around like i'm some kinda pole of something,
maybe i should beef up. Hehehe.

Silence is the worst form of expression you can experience.
Because it simply shuts off all forms of expression.

I like the word "faces".
In the IT fair, i saw many pretty faces at the 4th level.
At the 6th level i see no pretty face,
except maybe 1 face. (:
A familiar one.

MilkteaIceblended, i'm addicted to it.

& i'm still feeling feverish ):
Falling sick really often now!
I wanna watch more movies!
Late night ones!
:D:D

Chapter 249 - Eye of the storm

2010-03-11T16:11:00.005+08:00

In the eye of a Hurricane, you find the winds in there still and warm.
It's the least violent point of a storm.

People say our eyes are the windows of our soul.
You can actually see how the person's life is like through the eyes.
Like how we associate dark sleazy lazy eyes with villains in movies and all,
bright eyes speaks a lot for the character too.

Looking at everyone, somehow,
i see eyes everywhere, not really the face,
body or whatnots, but it's always the eyes.
That either repels you or draws you closer. (:

Alice in Wonderland's a nice show,
featuring Johnny Depp and Anne Hathaway,
who somehow can't keep her hands down. (:
A beautifully designed pair of eyes that reflects some twisted imagination.
Pretty eyes.

The Mad Hatter played by Johnny Depp
(Alice in Wonderland by Tim Burton)
'Today we're looking into the things that start with the letter "M".'

Rest Assured my friends.

Chapter 248 - It's gonna be different

2010-03-07T00:54:00.003+08:00

Hit on life just like a elbow to the nose.
OhmyGod it's so gonna hurt/kill.

Oh yes, visions and dreams my friend visions and dreams.
Things will never be the same,
Life will not be what it seems.

It's rather mad, to do things the way the guys in all those actions movies do.
That's why they're called movies isn't it?
Actions aren't real there and guess what?
It's acting. (:

Taking 'bout acting. Heh,
hope it's gonna work out, then everyone will have a lil' surprise.
Life's a roller coaster ride, we can't be too sure 'bout anything,
except the fact that we're strapped on and there's no going back. (:
Scream or cry, life still goes on.

Well, it's getting kinda conceptive and philosophical here.
Not nice.

Aye, Thanks mateys, for standing my me. (:
So far, i guess, it's gonna be different.

"It's a very very mad world."
(L)

Chapter 247 - Smiling

2010-03-06T02:24:00.002+08:00

It's better now.
Hope we're able to talk like that or like in past (:

Chapter 246 - ABC

2010-03-06T01:45:00.003+08:00

Gems of my life:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Names i'll never forget.

Chapter 245 - Another Night

2010-03-06T01:31:00.004+08:00

(: Honestly, my smiles aren't real anymore.
I treat you just like before but i know that that particular period messed this whole thing up.
But can you give me a chance? (:

It's really painful, when previously, you were all i had to confide in.

It's not really helping. I can call you, if you're willing to talk to me.

Why.

Goodnight, Sweet Dreams, Sleep Tight, Rest Well, Take Care and Have Fun!

Blackshot, for a few minutes, they take my mind off things.
Thanks Willie for re-introducing me this game.
I love SNIPING.

I miss childhood times.

Chapter 244 - Cyanide & Happiness

2010-03-04T04:25:00.003+08:00

Happiness, we don't really have to struggle for it.
For if we feel happy, we will feel happy.
Just like how happy people are happy people.
Right?

Some short Cyanide & Happiness comic strips to cheer a sad man up. (:

& Sometimes, the things we mean are obviously that obvious, yet some explicit elaboration are elaborated upon, making the talk really really, you know, from interesting to mundane.
Yes i really mean mundane. However, in some occasions, it can be pretty hilarious too.

Caution: Mature Content

Pranks, everyone loves pranks. (:

& The occasional stupidity of suicidal instincts.

Oh yes, satisfaction. (:
Life is short. Really short.
Friends, takes years to get close and yet minutes just to "make drift apart".
Assurance, and affirmation.
(L)

Chapter 243 - Sometimes laziness takes over

2010-02-28T00:12:00.004+08:00

Don't you think she's hot?
Pixie Lott, way too hot.
When i look at her, never will i get bored.

Really really she's hot, with a great voice too. (:
Gravity Music Video - Pixie Lott

Enjoy!

This is totally random!
So there's no need to be jealous!

Chapter 242 - i am not a racist

2010-02-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

Cherish.

Chapter 241 - For a Reason

2010-02-20T00:15:00.003+08:00

IMISSMYBABY
Males are lonely creatures,
declared by a book titled, "Manhood".
Somehow men just love making masks to cover their insecurities.
But we can't help it,
since men are not wired to relate.
Therefore, we need brothers.
Older brothers.

&& i'm still living in lack of it.

Thanks to someone, there's one less lonely guy in the world.
Lonely is a sophisticated word, it belongs to two realms.
Don't understand?
Well, no worries (:

I'm fat already how?
Bakwa makes me happy (:
But not bad, at least someone appreciates.

Somethings i've gotta say,
and yea i don't know how to say.
(Sometimes you feel that i have my friends, and the insignificance feels so great.
However, same thing here, sometimes i feel that you have your friends and the insignificance burns do deep.
Sometimes i attempt to say hello, initiate, and well.)
You know.
Grief is a good thing.
I love school uniforms too. (:

Gotta get berms!
I only have a pair, and sucks to wear long pants all the time.
I am no longer juvenile, am i?

(:
Maybe it's better to shutup & shutdown.

"Let's go swimming!"

Tag Replies:

J: Where got blue smiley? ):

Phil: Oh yea, haha i saw that last year, and year it's coming out this year Oct-Dec period. (:

(:: Updated!

Chapter 240 - No Reason

2010-02-18T16:50:00.002+08:00

I'm updating for the sake of it. (:

It takes years to see a tree grow,
but it takes seconds to make a friend go.
In minutes a tree can come down,
in years friendship can have no sound.

In our naive-ity and disbelief,
sometimes we need love to make time freeze.

Chapter 239 - A step to the future, see the bigger picture

2010-02-13T18:00:00.002+08:00

Just made some edits to the previous posts.
Just realised a few seconds ago, that i named the previous post as chapter 270.
A lil' bit too far ahead ain't i?

Reunion dinner's just a few minutes away. (:
Kinda excited, long time since i last had good food.

And yes, yes, i think i know the difference between a man and a woman.
Maybe maybe.
A visit to Thailand perhaps? (:

Missing Persons 1 & 2 - OneRepublic

Replying

J: Haha, did you have McFlurry that day? Well, i feel like having McWings now. :D

DESIREE: Whatever la hor, haha, just be a girl, it's good that way. :D And yea, human beings aren't we? and what angmoh epic ph4il? Acting cute? Yea yea, being an international disgrace aren't i?

The world's a dangerous place..

Chapter 238 - Let's talk

2010-02-12T01:13:00.003+08:00

Man and woman.
Hammered and woven.

Replying them:

Desiree,
Oh it's not you? I so thought it was you know? Haha, wet nose and puppy eyes. And yes, how big's the difference and what's the difference? ... Yea, tell me 'bout it. (:

J,
Haha, caught in between huh, how sad right? Like i have the characteristics of both, well, i guess yea, should have some deep reflection on all that. Thank you. (:

Chapter 237 - Animalistic

2010-02-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

What's the difference?
Between man and woman.

tagreplies.

Willie, Very much appreciated bro. (:

Tessa, Ah yes, yea relaxing, and Taunders huh. Just like how you're Tessa and not Sessa. :D

Phil†, Haha sure sure thanks bro. (: You're always around.

Shir, Hi Shir! (:

Desmond, I agree, and are you who i think you are? The one with a wet nose, and puppy eyes? Hachiko? :D

Chapter 236 - The numbness

2010-02-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

You feel numb when it happens.
I like it, i feel i can get killed and not feel anything.
Stay safe.

Wait too long and time blasts a hole in our heads,
no no no one wants that to happen,
neither do i.
I wanna drop out,
and go through the stages of life,
relishing each and every moment right now,
before age catches up and it's too late.

Losers stay and say tomorrow will be good,
but no, tomorrow never comes, but it's for us to catch up.
Catching up, don't make tomorrow good, make it the best.
Yes, philosophies kill.
So does words.

I can't wait for later,
will i piss the one off?
Or will the one piss me off?
I don't know, i don't wanna think too.
I scared, but yea, putting on a brave front makes me feel better.
But yea, you know, the world's a lonely place,
can never have too many friends.

Nobody likes me, or is there someone?
I feel.

I've got a baby! (:
Cute one, don't steal him away losers!
Stop controlling his life!

I am a _______ bad influence.

Don't worry, i won't leave you (:

Chapter 235 - Here We Go!

2010-02-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

It's a pity.

Here me out now.
J - Replying now! (:

DESIREE - Yes yes, best of the best la, right? Let the pinkies do the talking. (: MANGO~

stranger - thank you!

GRACE - updated! (:

Willie - Glad you like it. (: Keep moving onward!

SEBASTIAN - Hee, competition, but it's postponed.. Yea, and no worries, confirm there'll be more. And sorry for not replying for so long. :p

Jaime - Teehee? :D Taahaa!

Iris - Relinked!

:D:D:D:D

Expect differences,
expect disappointments,
expect sadness,
expect separation.

Accept differences,
accept disappointments,
accept sadness,
accept separation.

Ignore love,
receive hate,
rebuke birth,
and be dead.

It's life for us,
and pain through life,
all's useless,
except death's scythe.

Chapter 234 - Replying the Stuffs

2010-02-01T18:43:00.002+08:00

The "Onward" post was actually a competition, but yea,
it's postponed, so i guess, there's no point looking forward anymore,
so no more onward, but thanks everyone.

Have fun!

Chapter 233 - As Promised

2010-02-01T18:09:00.002+08:00

in my mind's there just a word.
"Twisted"
& it's not by the things that're happening around me,
just an initial feeling.

Sad huh.

Rushed 2 major projects the last week, kinda proud of myself, not?
And yes, i am thinking, and am too planning.
Should i or should i not?
People who know give me an answer.

I hate people who don't walk the talk.
I hate people who looks at negativity.
I hate people who turns down positivity.
I hate people who thinks of themselves (all the time).

I like people with a good sense of humor.
I like people who have problems too.
I like people who dare to share.
I like people who looks at positivity and pushes away negativity.
I like people, but i hate people. (:

Promising people make good friends.
Don't they?

You like people who tell you you're doing well,
and care to listen right?

I should learn to listen too.

Cherishing brotherhood.
SA makes brotherly people,
people who're so over-brotherly and nice.
And yes, they are nice, very nice.
They're cute too.

Children. (:
School. |:
Friends. .~.
Sky. (:

The Story of the Moon.

A tale of a night sun,
there is only one.
(to be continued..)

Chapter 232 - Wait for the 1st of Feburary okay?

2010-01-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

Yes wait, then i'll update.
Projects.

Chapter 231 - Onward

2010-01-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

On 5th of February, we shall make our mark.
Put a name above our names.
Our perseverence shall pay off, our hardworking and effort too.
Our determination shall be the key, our strength shall drive us on.
As we push forward, march onward, and fight on, we shall see results, desirable results.
Pain is no excuse, tiredness is unheard of.
It comes as it comes, fight on and fight hard we will!
(:

Chapter 230 - You Hear

2010-01-11T20:20:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies:

Sebastian, Haha, why can't you do that? Well, you'll have to learn to do that when you spar. (: And i found it tough too, but now i dare to whack alr. Haha. Cool, unique kinda feeling ar? Maybe cause Sherman's my bro, then like family ah. (: Love him yea, haha, and Thanks bro, you're the faithful tagger. Who makes my tagboard so active.

Sean, Yea, relinked alr! (:

Willie, Thanks bro! (: Wishing you all the best too! Jiayou for all your work man! Don't look at the negatives, look at the positives!

Phil, Haha, yo Sexy! Wishing you all the best in all you stuffs too! :D

Grace.L, Yea, relinked! (: Have fun!

Stranger, may i know who you are? And nope, it's just a Drama ministry. (: Yea.

"Ocean Wide, the possibilities."

Chapter 229 - BROTHER!

2010-01-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!
SHERMAN!
Well, he's cute and he just turned 13.
LOVE HIM.
Don't you guys love him too!

ENJOY being 13 bro! (:

Chapter 228 - A year has passed.

2010-01-01T04:52:00.002+08:00

It's 2010! :D
Oh yes, the year is finally over!
Tough year, great choices, happy! :D

You happy?
Christmas's just over too!
Well, as you all know, the DRAMA rocked the house,
and yea, nothing beats spending quality time with all your loved ones.
Life's never been lovelier.
& yea, I've watched AVATAR by James Cameroon.
It's a great movie, all should go catch it. (:

New Visions, New Hopes, New Dreams, alrighty, sounds like i'm some passionate person.

4sticks, & 1more, tell no one.
Experience like never before, it was fun.

Yea, hush.
COuntdown, and it's a year's anniversary of this blog.
This blog's now kinda like a real turn back to look at my written pages kind already.
Alright i guess no one will understand what i'm talking about.
And i have this headache which hurts hurts hurts. ):
But great that i get to once again celebrate with loved ones.
Haha, new year, new beginning huh.

Cherish.
Life's lovely.

Tagreplies:

-Dingdong, ah nice. (:
-Grace Fong, okay okay i know i know.. You angry? :p
-Carmen, thanks thanks alot Smiley.
-Tessa, it's called smart. :D:D:D Hee.
-XiaoXuan, Haha you can have it. :D
-Sebastian, Train man, then next time punch me i cry. And get internal injury. (:
-Isabel, heh, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO! (: DOn't worry, send you again when traffic clears. (:

Chapter 227 - Long days

2009-12-22T12:53:00.002+08:00

I reached home at 4+am last night.
Not due to boozing at some pub or hanging out with nocturnal animals.
It was cause of Drama.
I am seriously proud of being in Drama. :D
It gives me the chance to sacrifice for them, (in a way) yea.
Also, having late nights with the people and feeling all tired together with them helps us bond better too. (:
Journals, oh man.
Mine's still incomplete.

&& my reflections, all not done yet! ARGH!
Actually since i have time to write here, i guess i should have time to write my reflections too.
Alrighty, drama later!

See everyone real soon!

"I think i can do all things, through Christ who strengthens me. I think."

Tagreplies.

Sebastian, Haha where got entertain, i'm sure if you add heat into it, can whack until pwasiol one. (: Haha, and when have you not been a comedian? You always make us laugh, just that i hear less of your jokes now. Hahah.

Fiona, WHOOO! Hello Mei. (:

Karuna, Really? Hahaha, yea yea, so good you took a picture with Sun! I don't even dare to approach her. :p

Grace, You're Fong right? Haha, next time can put your name as GRACEF? Easier for me to recognise. :p Hahaha, yea, i think so too. Nahh, don't deny, and ya, you wanna be a woman so badly?

Karen, yes yes, that feelin right. (: The pain, the anguish, arghness. Hahaha, then you wanna vent on the wallls but the walls will hurt you back, so you sit and wait for someone to come around to piss you off. (:

Xiaoxuan, what what what? Don't cry la.

Tessa, use binoculars, can teach you many things. :D

Chapter 226 - Smells like fish.

2009-12-20T13:04:00.002+08:00

ARGH, reflections.
Stress me out!

Tagreplies:
Sebastian, i thought you TKD one? haha, where got luan luan pa?
Tessa, can one, just that you haven't tried hard enough.
Xiaoxuan, bring home lor. Ask Sherman buy for you also can (:
Xinyun, yes you are. :D Haha, Big group.

Chapter 225 - Bun Bone Bounce Black Bel Bean & Bin

2009-12-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

All the nicknames, nice one.
And the moodswings, kinda not nice.
Try to be nice, alright.
Yea, keep it cool, and chill.
Coldness, i can feel.

Not speaking in riddles, but yea, short lines that my head generated to show my thoughts.
Suddenly, i miss my grandma so so much. ):

SAW II, watched it two nights in a row with two great groups of people,
first was XY,
Next was T03, but just a small group of 'em, good buddies.

Christmas, and many more,
life's getting packed,
but i love it,
GSK KIDS' CAMP Tomorrow!
LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING A POLICEMAN!
Alright, kiddos, I'm here to crack the case! :D

Yea, wolfteam~

Chapter 224 - Thoughts, uncontrollable.

2009-12-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

I think i'm turning evil.
I feel like taking a knife and stuffing it up someone's nostrils.
And taking some weights and dropping it into a person's open mouth.
I wanna pull tongues and snap fingers.
I wanna take a hammer and smash through a person's mouth.
I wanna take the precious of everyone's lives away and tear it apart.

Nahh, i won't do that, but just a moment ago, i had this feeling.
And if any unlucky person annoyed me then, they'll experience one of the above. (:
Scary.. don't you think so?
I think it's cool.
Just like SAW.

Wahahaha. Not really had the feeling of killing, just the feeling of i wanna give someone shit. :D

Chapter 223 - Many words..

2009-12-14T10:04:00.003+08:00

To prove a feat. (:
The REDBULL is opened by the way.
In the purple line train. :D

Yea yea i know i said i'll update that night,
and i didn't.
Well, wasn't my fault, right?
I had a long night and it totally slipped my mind.
So sorry to those who kind "believed" my words.
I'm so sorry i did not keep to my word,
but i promise i will, next time,
and will never write such things again. (:

Hmm, well, it's a long while since i last wrote huh,
so many things,
well, i think i have to start doing all my reflections real soon.
Piling up as each week passes by.
Tomorrow's the time to prepare for implementation.
ARGH, stressed.

Wolfteam's fun, though i kinda don't like it last time,
i find it really fun now, oh my.
Kinda addicted to it..
Yea, snipe snipe snipe.

Yesterday night had drama rehearsal.
I'm not supposed to say anything about it.
SO, i will not (:
Hahhaa, well, it's a really good one this year,
wanna catch it?
Come join me next week.
You'll never regret it.
See ya then!

This morning went to school, met Hammy.
And, yea, she's studying hard and eating lil' as usual. (:
Implementing on classmates were never so fun.
Can't wait for Thursday, then we can have SAW marathon.
MUAHAHAHAHA.

Work work work, all in my mind now..
I wanna play soccer, haha, but i feel like doing work still.
SOmehow as i write more, the more i feel like writing.
Yeaaa.

Just had ice cream, blueberry ripple,
got it from the uncle by the roadside with his super loud motorbike,
and his familiar bell.
I love old school cheap ice cream. :D
They have better sentimental value than Ben&Jerry's.
But they can't beat Haagen Daz. (:

I wanna go get new clothes,
i'm like rewearing clothes ever so often mannnn..
HAHAH, Cloud Strife owns man. (:

I want a camera, an itouch, a new phone and money!
SHORTAGE OF CASH.
I love drama once again, i feel that after yesterday, i made more friends and i feel more comfortable now.
When i used to feel like so out of place, and kinda dread it, but now's different! :D
I hope i can help out and be part of the crew!
BYEEEEEEEEEE!

I like the stars nowadays.

TAGREPLIES:

Sebastian,
haha, yea long time no chat, i wanna dinner with you someday! :D AND why four eyes? & yes i enjoy wolfteam :D Haha, you should play too, together. Haha, lol, yea, defeated the CHAOs. :D HEhe, you like youtube movies uh. ahhaa, next time got new ones i'll update you. :D

Grace,
i wanna play with you too. Linked! Link me back! :D HAHAHA, no la, i become noober alr. ):

Tessa,
yes yes, super big right, that they can fight with elephants alr. :D Hee, yea, see ya soon, next saturday maybe :D

Ed,
Hey Ed! :D

YuanXi,
haha, well, parents are one thing, but yea, hee, you're a really good friend too :D

Chapter 222 - The bore that destroys mankind.

2009-12-10T17:14:00.001+08:00

There's one thing that totally wastes your time and kills your happiness.
Boredom.
Yes, and i'm facing it right now, right in front of me.
In my tutorial.
The tutor is talking to herself, enjoying herself too.
Giving us retarded assignments, and yea, wasting our time..

Shall update again tonight.
:D

Chapter 221 - Irreplacable

2009-12-08T01:32:00.001+08:00

Now i know who are the ones who're really important to me.
Pondering upon that question,
separation can really be scary,
but if we are willing, we can stay united and strong.
We should all just move on.
(:

Chapter 220 - Penguins and Birthdays

2009-12-06T14:31:00.002+08:00

(: XiaoXuan smiled so much yesterday,
it's not like she's not always smiling, but yea, she smiled a lot yesterday.
And well, that's just the joy of having many people coming together to celebrate your birthday yea.
There's the element of surprise which every birthday tries to achieve.
And it'll cause the loss for words kinda feeling.

Yea,
feeling real lazy now.
CRAVING for seaweed shaker fries.
Thank GOD ulcers are recovering, left one idiot stuck on my right inner cheek.
I miss MT training totally,
missed out so so much. ):

Gonna train train train now.

S-T-R-E-S-S relieved :D

We never forgot that that's the place where we said the next time 3 of us go out together we'll have dessert there. (:

school's drama and assignments're killing meeeeee!
Just when i thought i cleared everything...

Tag replies:
XiaoXuan - Haha touched. (: Great. Well, yea, forgiven me yet? Heh, and glad you had a good time. Go out again soon yaa.

Sebb - Gam Sia. :D

Willie - Haha, no problem man. It's true, you text me that morn and it lifted my confidence up too :D So yea, work hard bro, but don't fall sick! Sleep early too!

Passerby - Haha, just tag with your name la. Yea, no problem. And i sure will, no worries. (:

Karen - yea, ulcers are ouch. Haha i tried but ulcers keep coming to me. Heh, oh so sorry didn't get to talk much to you the last two days. Yea, see ya around yaa.

Phil - Yea! (: haha, especially since it's your holidays :D

Chapter 219 - Special

2009-12-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

I have a collection.
A huge collection. (:
Large collection of ulcers.
Beneath my jaws, tongue, lips and cheek.
And a damn bad sore throat to top it up.
Well, know what, Saunders is learning how to keep his mouth shut.

&& yea, sing well my good friend (:

Special is a word, a new word.
A word i learnt today.
Dinner with XinYun, was rather good. :D
All the talks, though i did not talk much, or did i talk a lot?
Yea, and we did a lot of walking,
"nice people are loved"
Well agree with that.
Believed in me. (:

& the ipod shop is closed! D:
Gonna get it soon!

I really wanna go out and slack and relieve myself..
I feel so cramped within!
ARGH.. HELP.

&& never forget Willie's and XiaoXuan's neverfailtomakeyoufeelgood messages. (:

List of people whom made my day:
(Not in order of importance, just alphabetical)
1. Jaime
(the way you ate the tao suan, awww.. and the way you keep secrets..)
2. Jia Hao
(your absence made me know what cliques are, and had me taste rejection, so somehow, i know it sounds gay, but miss you when you're not around)
3. Willie
(though didn't heard from you today, it just somehow got stuck in my head, the idea of you encouraging me)
4. Xiao Xuan
(your caring messages, and never failing to ask how was i, basically, your love and care)
5. Xin Yun
(being special, and making my ulcers not that painful for the few hours)

Lastly, my brothers, everytime when i'm back home late,
they never fail to wait for me, even thoug they're doing their own stuffs,
their presence just makes the difference.

Chapter 218 - Record this.

2009-11-30T18:29:00.001+08:00

Tagreplies,

Kamen: Thanks! HAHA yea, you tooo, jiayou! (:

Xiaoxuan: Hope your leg recovers soon, I guess you should take time to rest yea. :D After your break we can go out together already! Long time no spend proper quality time with you both. (: && I'm busy with a reason, so should forgive me yea?

Jaime: Oo, similar trotters? I thought yours were one of a kind. :D Anyways, don't say yourself trotters laa, you have slim legs, be proud and thankful you don't have elephant legs (: Hee. Yea is my new hair pretty? But i think there's like just a lil' difference.

Willie: Always can count on you for encouragement bro. :D HAHA, yea, you too man, the dark might not be bright but sure can brighten it up yea (: You too you too, eat more.

Yuanxi: Huh, what monday? hahah, i'm so gonna miss training. ): Don't forget me yea.

Idestinee: Sure will, i'm smiling a lot already. Haha, how 'bout you? Smile too yea! (:

Phil: Thanks Phil, alright la, be a good boy and play hard yea! HAHAH :D

Chapter 217 - Can't believe

2009-11-30T10:48:00.002+08:00

i can't believe 3 guys can camwhore. :D
With bros, love them, cuddly and macho.

Chapter 216 - Ouch, painful.

2009-11-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

I just fell from a height of approximately 1.8metres.
I fell on my ass, and i kinda hurt my spine, felt like a bruise of some kind's inside.
Hope i don't turn retarded tomorrow.
And there's a lil' red dot there, a graze. ):

Well, school's just killing me as usual,
not in a very good mood,
but at least i get to see Hammy. (:
I don't know why, talking to her just make me feel light,
like i don't feel heavy anymore.
Really good to have someone to tease too.
But i did not tease her, i am really nice.
She's not having a good day either,
but i guess, she's strong yea. :D

Projects, tackling them, one by one.
I fell that i'm not contributing as much as previous semester.
I feel like a slacker in my project group.
Am i? D:

My bro got his PSLE results today!
Thank God he's gonna go to SASS.
St. Andrew's rocks! :D
I am definitely proud of him!

My foot's swelling up.
Like a trotter. ):
HELP..

Tag replies:

Sean, sure thing Sean. :D

Jaime, yes! DYING. PROJECTS EVERYWHERE. D: But still can live laa. (:

Germaine, block 23. Seek encouragement there!

Willie, yea, thank you man, you never fail to encourage. THANK YOU! :D

Grace, ah yes? :D

Chapter 215 - You might not believe your eyes

2009-11-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Day was tiring.
Last week's most unforgettable event, Jaime's birthday celebration.
:D many smiles indeed.

Fireflies - Owl City, a newfound love.

Sentosa's outing was a lil' hectic,
but actually, nowadays, everything's hectic,
with work piling up and all.
Gonna see my deathbed soon.

Today's lectures are just so draining.
Somehow feel like there's discord all around.
Insecure man.

Had fun with bros at home.
& I know how to support myself in school. :D
There's the forever around study group at block 23! :D
Thank you guys!

Tag replies:

Yuan Xi, why sia? you have?

Riggs, huh?

Karen, yea, you felt better after CGmeeting? Another CGmeeting's coming up! Excited? Stay strong girl! :D

Ninjaturtle, on man, you're a hard one. Are you a guy or a girl? :D

Chapter 214 - One Republic

2009-11-16T21:46:00.003+08:00

"When we were children we played.."

A good lollipop which reminds me of my childhood. (:
Given to me by XinYun.
Really honoured, for she went to a few shops before eventually finding this exclusive flavour.
Choc Vanilla, my favourite. (:

One Republic rocks! (:
Their new album, Waking Up,
just blew me away.
If there are songs which can describe humane moods in words,
and yet retain it's melodious properties,
you can find such songs in Waking Up.
I wasn't really a big fan of One Republic, other than the songs,
Apologize and Stop and Stare.
But we'll they're probably the fastest maturing bands around.
Alright, enough 'bout the One Republic talk.

Now let's get on with the everytime stuffs.
It's been quite a long while since i last wrote in here,
there's this strain in my mind when i try to recall events.
so yea, save the pain and no writing.

Well, i'm really so into SAW still, and Karen,
SAW is imaginative, so is playdough. (:
SAW is .. there's just no perfect adjective for it.

Dissidia, has been on my mind for quite awhile now,
never loved Cloud this much before,
and his nemesis, Sephiroth is just like, Im-Balanced..
Well, gaming has been a way of life since we were still in God's mind.

Completed two ridiculous pieces of work,
the evil lesson plan,
and the beastly 1500words essay.
They bounded me to my lappy till morning,
nearly killed my eyeballs,
but well, satisfaction at the end of it.
Learnt a lesson too, no more procrastination,
it must be broken.
Agreed?
yea. (:

School was interesting as usual, somethings made me kinda dread and wanna avoid some people,
however, good stuffs still happen,
if you care, go watch the stars, they tell my life story. :D
I guess that drifting here and there isn't the best way to live,
so i think it's time to settle down,
settle down and clear my mind and make my day right.
Well, you know tidbits really make my day. (:

Thank God for friends.
And thank God for birthdays.
Know whose are coming up?
Check and stay tuned to find out. (:

Tag replies.
Amir - Hahah, what game you wanna play bro? Chalet let's watch SAW! :D

Karen - Haha, true you know, i am an overgrown baby, just that i'm not that overgrown, but i definitely have a child in me. (: Everyone has, right? And i do love to play and be active. HAHAHHA, are you happy? That all the stress can be put aside already? :D

Sebastian - i have no idea what's all that about, but i am sure you are a devoted young man, a loyal brother. (: Thanks for tagging ever so often, i feel loved! :D

Riggs - Then don't watch! HAHAHA.

Yuan Xi - Ee you go taste? :P

Chapter 213 - I want to play a game.

2009-11-05T09:23:00.002+08:00

JIGSAW's waaay tooo coool to be rated R21.
Should bring him down to G man!
SAW VI is out! Coming soon i mean.
Experienced the ultimate SAW I-V fivelogy the past few nights.
Too bad, boredom got me before my assignments.
Brothers watched with me. :D
Man, SAW SAW SAW SAW, i'mma hungry sadist. Don't you think so?
Perfect plots are just so entertaining.

Projects are like overwhelmingly stressful.
I feel so overwhelmed, and not just projects,
there's this thing around me, this weird feeling. Ugh.
Assignments, Essays, coming in slowly, still a lot to do.
It's like some kinda landslide.
Needa collect 5 stones, twigs and leaves later, for what?
I don't know too.
I made this playdough thing yesterday,
i had to remake it a second time, cause i did not stir the flour mixture properly.
And it smells like Thai food!
No offence, but i'm just not used to it.
It reminds me of the times when i went to Golden Mile Complex alone.
And it's edible btw. :D
I skipped the cream of tartar, cause it just hid itself from me.
Plus there's no time to go to some NTUC.
Well, life's like that, nothing's perfect, even children's playdough has some kinda smell.
I used Pandan essence already by the way.

There's one perfect thing, all of Jigsaw's plans to make people kill one another.
Just so sadistically perfect (:

Recycled Materials.

Chapter 212 - Dreams and God Ideas.

2009-11-01T12:19:00.003+08:00

It's really a long time..
Dad's car's still out of use.
But he's being a brave man.
Admire his bravery. (:

Let's see..
Monday, went to Kidz Amaze.
It's kinda like a kids' indoor playground,
a mazey one, so we got stuck here and there every now and then.
:D it was fun, we had ball fights and used ball cannons.
Eddie and i had this doggy mount which was so ever entertaining.
Then after all the fun and play, made our way towards the east,
Eddie went home, and i went Lavender,
to my new-found favourite hair salon. (:
The Hair Secrets, they do great cuts and styles!
Do join me for a haircut! :p
Then after the cut, which tried to thicken my hair, but in the end made me look like i have bangs,
went to Golden Mile complex to get my first ever Muay Thai pants,
it cost a whopping 65 bucks, and it's shorter than FBTs.
It was not really a ripoff, since the design's unique and it looks cool.
Got another pair of handwraps there too. A cream white one. (:
Then off to Vivo for dinner, and home!
Long day? Not really..

Tuesday, can't really recall much, but i'll try to.
I just remember school, and after that training,
a rigorous one.
Nearly died, but six babies are comin' up. (:

Wednesday, went to school for a short while then off to Marina Square with Yuan Xi.
He wanted get some stuffs, while i wanted to get something too.
Yea and after that went to Shirley's birthday!
Gave her a good surprise. (:
And i had this really cool meeting..
With this Taiwan guy..
It's cool, no doubt. (:

Well, Thursday was great, training was extraordinary.
Aggression, made my day. (:

Friday, Loh Wai Fun, that's the name, boring me away.
And SAM was pretty interesting. (:
And went to support..
ANGER was present, but didn't last.

Yesterday had a great Halloween.
Service, was tired but the message was impacting,
reminds me of Angeal, Embrace your dreams.
Dinner was absolutely great!
Got to have quality time with the Cgmateys.
Well, i realised that it's actually just the enthusiasm that drives a quality fellowship. (:

And that's all! Well, long week i had!

Tag replies.

SmallSebas : AH LAI ahha. Yea smiling really wide! Hood is the cover for the car's engine. You know the front part?

XiaoXuan : Yea he's alright. (:

Jaime : Sure! :D

Chapter 211 - Scary bee

2009-10-25T12:43:00.002+08:00

Okay, finally, back from an all out exhaust-iating chalet.
I feel so stinky, dirty and unhygienic there.
But nonetheless, it was pretty much enjoyable.
Other than the cold and dust.

When i think of that, i smile to myself.

Losing hope in the B word.
But nevermind, there's still more cheerful events in life to look out for. (:
And you know i can't stop smiling now.

Can tell that mummy's like better now,
she thinks for herself and everyone else,
maybe it's a good change.

But daddy's still not really doing well,
had this awesomely unfortunate accident today,
i was in the car with him.
I saw his hood getting bent on the spot.
Thank God he's holding the brakes, if not, i think i'd be like minced meat now.
Daddy was unhappy, like of course, but he handled it well.
(: Respect.

Gonna look forward to the upgraded looks of his car. :D

Hammy and Penguin.
Plus Joel..

"I'm just a lil' bit caught in the middle of life." - Lenka (The Show)
It's just life. (:
Hee.

Wellwhatdoweknow?
Soletsjustgowiththeflow!

Chapter 210 - A whole lot of stars.

2009-10-21T12:42:00.002+08:00

There's been this starry night thing going on recently.
Being to a place with visible stars for 5 days straight, and really noticing them,
had set my life in a serene and slow paced mode.
Such that finding out that i have a shoot and a workshop today had made me panicky and too lazy to move.
In fact, i feel like skipping them all.
Well, you know, i think..

Alrighty, i feel better.
New friends made me happier.
And in the day i do miss the stars.

If you say i'm mature,
then i'll commit.

Well, sorry to all for not replying tags.

Here goes.
Replies:

Jaime, Yea, go ahead and check, anyway you already know the meaning! :D And yea, like when you tell a person, the person seems like nothing went in and give no comment or expression, it's like talking to a wall. But don't worry you're not anyone, neither of you all are. (:

Tammie, I know, that's why when we see children, we go "whoo!"

Xiaoxuan, Don't lazy, lazy not good.

Yuanxi, It's a person both you and i know, i think. (:

Dingdong, Yea nice quote yea? And thanks. (:

SmallSebas, Haha, yea agreed! Trials and tribulations. It's like getting trapped man, but well yea, since you all are with me, i guess i can really keep on keeping on. :D And don't worry yea, i feel better already! Yea, haha i'll try to remember your number. :p

Chapter 209 - I'm Your Biggest Fan

2009-10-18T13:21:00.002+08:00

What did i do yesterday?
Well, it was service and Xu Dong's Birthday celebration!

Happy Birthday Xu Dong!

Well, you know, my anger ceased.
I find it no point. Yea totally.
"Cry me a river, build me a bridge, do us all a favor and jump off it."
Quote from Ben, well, funny.

The one who makes everyone angry is someone with great ability.
It's difficult to find anyone so annoying, yet, fun to poke.
And i guess yea, shall leave the one alone for now.

I'm seriously..
Really feel like my life's in some stalemate kinda stage.
No point telling anyone anything.
As no one gives good stuffs.
Well, aish.

Great great great.
I'm bored.

:D

Chapter 208 - Please check the previous post (:

2009-10-15T23:18:00.003+08:00

See the update on me in the previous post, this post is mainly tag replies.

XiaoXuan, Yea family, tired! Families do have wars internally sometimes, stay strong girl! && THANKS for the best! :D

Jaime, Oh wow, how nice of you! You're so nice yea. Like ice cream and choco sauce. Asking me to die then after that saying you love me. Anyways, thank you! Still smiling from 10/10. :D

Julia, Oh it's okay, thanks! (: Yea i did, kinda sad you missed out on it. Anyways, see ya around!

Chapter 207 - Experience is given, but emotions are chosen.

2009-10-15T22:50:00.002+08:00

To learn from it, only then you will get better.
To feel good about it, only then there'll be motivation to improve.

Tell everyone a secret alright.
It's been a very very long while, since Saunders has felt an emotion like this so strong.
The very last time was sometime last year.
Well, it makes my heart beat fast and all, and you know what?
Nothing. (:

Poems mean everything.
Look at it from every direction and you'll find new meaning.
Look at it from front to back and you'll see the process.
Look at it from back to front and you'll see the...

From Monday, 12th October to today, Thursday, 15th October,
I was in camp, a camp called, HMS Leadership Adventure camp.
It's somehow, by far, one of the best camps i've ever been to.
With no conflicts between us teammates and super caring group leaders,
i think it's a blessing that i attended it despite the overwhelming hesitation.
There were namely, Ronny, Petrina, our group leaders, and
Eric, Jaysen, Darren, GuoHao, Michelle, Jeanne, WingSze and MiaoLing, as teammates.
We were a great team. (:
&& team Barney rocks, even though the purple dinosaur is weird and seems pedophillic,
we're a whole lot different and better.
From day 1, to day 2 (which i was supposed to leave at night but didn't),
to day 3 (which i left for modeling graduation), to day 4.
We found each others' strengths and flaws, though flaws were rare,
i think we were pretty tested in patience since we were faced with circumstances when we only had a 2 hour sleep the night before.
Breakfast and other mealtimes were especially special since most of our sharing and randomness comes from these times.
Amazing Race and walk to West Coast, which i left halfway were especially tiring, but i feel that they were all fruitful.
We knew each other better and were able to communicate better. (: Great right?

Then modeling graduation party!
Well, i've completed my modeling course! :D
So happy you know, but had to rush back to campfire in school to support my teammates,
so i cabbed down, so nice of me yea?
Went down in full costume and numerous paperbags, super-auntie-like.
Well, no one laughed at me, which was great (:
In fact i was just like a few minutes late to seeing my team perform, oh man!
But i think they did well, and they welcomed me back.
Eric, a good friend in the team, gave us lessons on using catchy phrases and words,
which turned out to have us addicted to his lingo-istic words and phrases.
"Ahh, steam." It just sound so properly placed.
Everyone was great in the team and i can really go on if i have the time, but you know,
having less than 6 hours of sleep in 4 days is gonna destroy my body and enlarge my already bulging eyebags, so i guess, i need sleep!

Missing everyone, like it always is after every camp.
And i still feel that way!
Great. (:

Stay sweet everyone!
See those i can see in school, and those i can see in church!
And those by extremely fated circumstances, lets see each other in the streets.
Did i mention i met Stella on the train?
Well, perfect timing and a lil' bit of missing should do the trick.

Shalom. This word reminds me of..
Pissed. ****ed up. They rhyme, no problem.
Violence might be able to solve this one, if the mother is removed from the picture. (:
Anger is definitely good for me at times, they give me adrenaline.

Jizzed.

Peace on Earth and Goodwill to all Men!~
Love. Saunders. He's Sexy, can't deny.

Chapter 206 - Ten 10 Onine

2009-10-11T00:35:00.003+08:00

It was the happiest day of the year 2009.
The most joyous occasion for Saunders in the whole year.
The day he felt the gladdest.

Adrian,
Benjamin,
Daniel,
Fion,
Germaine,
Jaime,
Jia Le,
Mark,
Xiao Xuan,
Philbert,
Shirley,
Willie and
Jason.
These names are permanently imprinted to my head, for they made 17 a great year to begin with. (:

You all made this day i mean yesterday such a great day,
surprised me and all. You know, overjoyed.
Never forgetting Sebastian Leow.
(: I know you have something on, or else you'll definitely be here right? (:
Thank you everyone.
And all those who wished me and got me gifts.
(: I especially like the bag, the Ed Hardy gift vouchers, the BodyShop thing, the balloons, the poster and all the cards and letters.
They just make me feel so loved.

&& i love the thick choco fudge cake too! :D
Best cake i've eaten in the year!

Saunders received 98 birthday wishes from whoever who wished him in the past 24 hours! (:
Be it by sms, msn, fb, calls, or real face to face handshakes, they were all treasurable moments.
And they're recorded! THANK YOU EVERYONE! :D

I'm thinking that 17 is really the sexiest year anyone will ever experience (:

LASTLY,
Thank you, Hammy & Miss Penguin.

Love ya, lots.

Yours Sexily, Saunders.

Chapter 205 - As the day draws near.

2009-10-09T11:26:00.002+08:00

It's coming, really!
And know, i can be a girl any second now.
Pouring out wishlists and whatever "iwant" fantasy list to the whole world.

Well, Saunders is simple,
loving the day,
something to make him smile,
the key words are,
presentable,
time,
simple,
attractive,
happy.

Well, you might not exactly know what i'm trying to tell,
but, rest assured, Saunders is simple. (:

[Tag replies]
Esther - Yea, it's him. LOL, haha, i can make my own eye shadow (: crush chalk add coloring.
Yuan Xi - Understood! yessir! Eh longtime no dinner together already. Next training i will join you guys for dinner!
Xiaoxuan - Of cause, Saunders is the sexiest name.

Chapter 204 - From where i was.

2009-10-08T01:22:00.002+08:00

A letter to the one who gave me life.

Dear God,
17 years ago, on 10th of October,
you breathed life into this human body you designed.
I really thank you for bringing me into this world,
leading my life through all these ups and downs.
Bringing all the friends into my life.
Giving me such irreplaceable parents.
Such wonderful siblings.
And leading me to know you once again.
It really amazing how life is like.
17 is the sexiest age. Great.
Thank You God.

Your design,
Saunders.

It's short.
But i am grateful. (:

Chapter 203 - Balmy.

2009-10-05T23:00:00.003+08:00

I've got lip balm! :D
Yay! Always wanted to have moist lips!
Sound stupid huh.
Actually i wanted to get a pink lip gloss with some flavor.
But heeding a lady's advice, i should not.
So i made do with the balm.

& Damn Kimchi!
Some kimchi are nice, but i encountered one with a serious attitude problem today.
It made me cry, let out weird noises, choke, suffocate and feel faint.
And well, i nearly died, and felt like i was in heaven.
I felt high, high on Kimchi.
On that damned kimchi noodles.
Shwart!

BOXERS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIE!
Brotherhood lasts a lifetime.
Our bonds are God's design.

Time sure pass like the waves on the ocean.

[Tag replies]
-Yuan Xi, Nahh nope. (:
- Esther, Haha yea, that's Ji Hoo! (: Love his hair! Yea money really can kill. Haha.
- Phil, All done!

Chapter 202 - Definitely missing you baby.

2009-10-01T01:07:00.004+08:00

Wanna see my dream hairstyle?

Ain't that hairstyle cool?
Now for a pose which can linger in your mind for awhile.

Sexy, Hot, whatever it is,
it's by him, naturally, it's just gonna sizzle.

Excitement!

Oh well, today's class was just fantastic.
I learned many things, which in my Saints' Hunt kinda missed.
Perhaps in Saints' Hunt, it's an all men competition,
thus they want us to look proud.
But well, need to do some self-humbling.
Since my catwalk looked "beng" and a lil' arrogant..
Butt, no worries man, i'll work hard to achieve optimum performance of myself. (:
Poses, 20 in 5 minutes.
Well, i can say one can do many things with passion and hardwork.
Wish me luck.

I NEED FINANCIAL support!
Man, Eyebrow trimming, haircuts, make-up kits and what-nots.
All these things are gonna burn a super black and ugly hole in my wallet.

Once more, groove to the music yea.
It's the melodies and beats that determine your mood, when you're alone.
And there's always that someone you miss.

Tag Replies:

Esther - Haha yea, was red. Anyways, i'm always tan, since i'm Saunders Tan! :D
Shir - Oh yes, Swimming! :D ROCKON!
Yuan Xi - Yea, alrighty, you plan yea, buy don't turn into your G-Force thingy ahh.
Iris - Yea your birthday's coming, so.. haha, Well yea not too far from yours right.
Grace - Tsk? Why hinting something?

Chapter 201 - White Sun makes Black People

2009-09-28T10:54:00.002+08:00

Swim swim swim,
move your body in the water.

Alright alright,
know what?
Swimming is one of the best kinda things that you can do to work your body.
It's an almost perfect exercise, no degeneration of the body, and it works out almost every aspect and every muscle in your body.
It a great way to broaden up your shoulders for guys, and get a streamlined figure for girls.
Plus with proper sunblock on, you'll not get burnt, but a nice light tan.
Isn't that just perfect?
:D Went to swim just yesterday,
with all the good ol' longtime no have fun together friends.
After swimming we went to have some relaxing perspiring time in the sauna.
It rocks man, it tightened my skin on my face and everywhere else.
The heat was so intense though, and our locker keys burnt us several times.

Lalala..